deeperthanlove.

Photographs & Memories

2012-02-02T17:32:00.000+08:00

Looking back just to realize that things can only get better. :)

Something Real

2012-01-27T02:36:00.001+08:00

Truth

2012-01-27T02:27:00.002+08:00

It's funny how we talked about it so often but we never really did.

Iris

2012-01-26T00:58:00.005+08:00

"You know, I've never felt so fragile before."

"But I don't think fragile is the word. Not for you. You're more like... strong."

Words

2012-01-23T02:29:00.001+08:00

I won't expect you to understand. I just want you to believe.

On The Radio

2012-01-07T16:06:00.051+08:00

I want to embrace all the thoughts, emotions, and feelings that come at present; appreciate their nuances, feel them all as a whole, know what to do (or what not to do) with them, be immersed in them for as long as I want to, let them out at times, drop them when I must and let myself be more than fine at the end of the day.

I know that this could be a repertoire as well, but nonetheless I don't want to live each day endorsing my inner self to just go through the motions and swim through the pool of nothingness. I want to be human and I'd rather keep it real.

The Immortals

2012-01-06T02:39:00.008+08:00

Oh, what else have I been missing out on all this while!?
This album speaks beauty and I just can't stop replaying all the songs yet.

Can't.

♥

Note to self: Always update your playlist.

Faust, Midas, And Myself

2012-01-05T03:51:00.035+08:00

"Dreams are parents of possibilities, and that's why I love to dream. Because there are hopes in dreams and dreams can be made real. Dreams have brought many to step out in faith. Dreams have nurtured even more dreams. Dreams from others in the past, either directly or another, have led us to where we are today.

But there are some dreams that have been forgotten. Dreams that have brought one to no where. Dreams that have caused frustration and destruction. And there are even dreams that have taken many lives away.

The truth is we spend such tremendous amount of energy and time pursuing dreams. However, if those dreams are not centered around what God has for us, or if one is looking for some sort of utopia out there, I guess whether those dreams come true or not, we're bound to be utterly disappointed at the end of the day. But I believe that God will inspire within us, whatever He desires.

Dream, not because you have a point to prove. Dream, not because you just want to see how far you can get. Dream, not because you feel the need to carry the dreams of others. Dream, not because you long to be better than the people around you. Dream, not because you desire pride or fortune and fame.

Dream, because you have the heart to. Dream, because you have faith. Dream, because God has put them in you. Dream, because you yearn to feel the ultimate joy of living it. Dream, because you will soon find exactly who you are meant to be and where you truly belong."

That's what I wrote about a year ago, and I have dreamed.

Today I am happy to reflect and acknowledge that some dreams of mine that were put for myself and for others have come to pass and some have gotten closer. Personally, I have gotten the opportunities to be a part of many amazing things, to know some incredible people along the way, and I have also gained many exciting firsts and worthwhile experiences - some to which extended beyond my own expectations.

However, I have to admit that just less than three months back, the line "I do not know what I want anymore" was lingering in my head so often that I got sick of it. For once, I actually thought that I might be lost in transition, stuck in between the art of coping and wearing myself out. I knew that I must reprioritise and regain my beliefs and perspectives that have been obscured by too many unnecessary things; I emptied myself out so I can be filled up with what I really need instead. And thank God for He heard my cry in the midst of it all and I am completely out of that state of jadedness now!

Today I have newer, bigger dreams, too. These are the dreams that require a leap of faith and these same dreams are the ones that I do not want to lose. So here I am to remind myself once again: to not stop dreaming; to commit all my dreams - both old and new - to God, and continue to seek His will; and in the mean time, be open to possibilities and give the best of myself in everything I do; and to not stop turning dreams into reality.

"As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things.
Sow your seed in the morning, and at evening let not your hands be idle, for you do not know which will succeed, whether this or that, or whether both will do equally well."

- Ecclesiastes 11: 5-6

Mushaboom

2012-01-04T11:06:00.001+08:00

The way to celebrate everyday?
Think deeply, feel deeply, and live deeply. :)

Always

2012-01-04T00:19:00.035+08:00

Growing up is not so bad when you learn to appreciate the people who have been around you most: your family, better in the process. I have definitely grown to love them more than ever throughout the years and even though I may not be the one at home all the time, they are always so close to heart.

Like every other family, there are times of ups and downs and in-betweeners. I was once quietly frustrated, discontented, frequently questioning God about my family when I was younger for all the reasons that I could think of back then. But right now in hindsight, the bigger picture is made clear and I am no longer the same egocentric child. I am just so grateful realizing how much I have always needed my family and that I have been in good hands indeed; truly loved.

Knowing what I can do for my family in return, and even more now, I will not allow any one of them to be taken for granted. For as long as I am my parents' daughter and my siblings' sister, I will be.

The Way You Are

2012-01-03T17:31:00.000+08:00

"We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love."

- Dr. Seuss

If It Means A Lot To You

2012-01-02T05:14:00.000+08:00

Let it be.

Resolution #9. Yes, I'll keep that in mind.

2012

2012-01-01T16:00:00.001+08:00

"I hope you will have a wonderful year, that you'll dream dangerously and outrageously, that you'll make something that didn't exist before you made it, that you will be loved and that you will be liked, and that you will have people to love and to like in return. And, most importantly (because I think there should be more kindness and more wisdom in the world right now), that you will, when you need to be, be wise, and that you will always be kind.”

- Neil Gaiman

Here's to another mind-blowing 366 days! Blessed New Year. :D

New Heights

2011-12-31T18:40:00.001+08:00

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and a future."

- Jeremiah 29:11

Thank You for taking me through this year, for making it all happen, and for reminding me that there's so much more to life for me than this. I just can't thank You enough!

But That's Not True

2011-12-30T07:49:00.004+08:00

Magic Hours

2011-12-28T05:44:00.002+08:00

Two open hearts and an infinite moment, deep and unprecedented in all simplicity.
Nothing less, nothing more.

Sensible Heart

2011-12-27T18:00:00.002+08:00

Some things cannot be explained, and some things need no explanation.

"Live Each Day As If It's Your Last."

2011-12-25T17:38:00.001+08:00

“Live each day as if it's your last', that was the conventional advice, but really, who had the energy for that? What if it rained or you felt a bit glandy? It just wasn't practical. Better by far to simply try and be good and courageous and bold and to make a difference. Not change the world exactly, but the bit around you. Go out there with your passion and your electric typewriter and work hard at...something. Change lives through art maybe. Cherish your friends, stay true to your principles, live passionately and fully and well. Experience new things. Love and be loved, if you ever get the chance.”

― David Nicholls, One Day

And so, have yourself a merry little Christmas today! :)

Colours & Promises

2011-12-23T06:27:00.007+08:00

Yet you're scared like me.

What The World Will Never Take

2011-12-21T18:13:00.002+08:00

"For my father and my mother have forsaken me, but the Lord will take me in."

- Psalm 27:10

For there are no orphans of God, only children.
It's a privileged day having spent some time with them indeed. :)

Someday We'll Know

2011-12-19T07:11:00.002+08:00

"So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison,
as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen.
For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal."

- 2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Amen.

Holocene

2011-12-16T06:56:00.003+08:00

“We sit silently and watch the world around us. This has taken a lifetime to learn. It seems only the old are able to sit next to one another and not say anything and still feel content. The young, brash and impatient, must always break the silence. It is a waste, for silence is pure. Silence is holy. It draws people together because only those who are comfortable with each other can sit without speaking. This is the great paradox.”

― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

Long Distance Call

2011-12-15T08:30:00.048+08:00

The voice of my best friend, my sense, support and everything else in between over the phone, all the way from London was surely an effective remedy for whatever that I was feeling prior to that. I love having hearty, inconclusive conversations and I guess it's still what we do best. :)

And Jessica Loo, you are terribly missed here.

Look What You've Done

2011-12-14T06:10:00.000+08:00

If you don't have your heart in it, don't go about it.

Please.

Many of Horror

2011-12-11T02:21:00.001+08:00

You Are My Inspiration

2011-12-09T08:10:00.012+08:00

Oh, you could just be. :)

As Dust Dances

2011-12-03T08:17:00.013+08:00

How cunning, fleeting. Almost gone in a glimpse.

And as I'm left with a speck of remains, the only constant I know is change.

But this too, shall pass.
And as ironic as it sounds, yes, I am counting on all these changes to bring me some constancy.

Underestimated

2011-12-01T16:52:00.003+08:00

♥

No More Keeping My Feet On The Ground

2011-11-30T08:00:00.004+08:00

Don't fear the worst that you let the best pass you by.

Can You Tell

2011-11-29T17:22:00.003+08:00

"What if I can't tell you now? Won't you let me know instead?"

What could have been, what will be and sometimes, even what that is going on - could all be in the unknown.
But maybe this is just how it is. Maybe this is how it should be.

That Golden Rule

2011-11-28T15:36:00.005+08:00

"Don't settle for less than God's best for you."

- Joyce Meyer